Dearest Class of 2010,
I'm not gonna lie. It's alot easier for me to say goodbye to you now compared to 2 weeks ago. I hope you don't considered that offensive or anything.....I took it as a good thing. I didn't want to be too teary-eyed and not say all the things I wanted to say.
Let me first start off by saying how MUCH I'll miss you. Because I REALLY will. & you are all probably tired of hearing everybody saying that, so I'll leave it at that.
I will say that you were really nice to us Class of 2011-ers. We had built our school's reputation and made an unbreakable bond that's uncomparable from other classes. It was just our classes that even BEGAN our school. period.
& even looking back at 3 school years from now......I felt so young back then. How did we come this far?
I'm always looking up to you.......emotionally.......and literally. You've inspired me. & at the same time I felt like I've walked into many people's lives and became a part of their family. I had gained hundreds of older brothers and sisters from the past 3 years, and it's nice to think back at all the moments we've shared, haha.
& I probably owe my whole life to you. You've been saving my hiney for everything. Not to mention, driving me back home from school and helping me with my homework. You've also saved me from insanity. & you were right about almost everything I needed to know about my teachers and classes when school starts every August. You constantly remind me about the 'whole picture' when I obsess over the little details.
At the same time, I felt like such an enormous amount of agony from you guys. I mean, seriously........I would even try to hide away from a short asian girl who freakishly happy all the time if I was a senior. & I halfway notice when I'm unintentionally bothering you from stuff you SHOULD be focusing on more. & maybe you're reading this thinking 'YOU?! Never!!!', but c'mon now. I'm nice, not stupid. & I'm not holding anything against you from that. Everyone's flaw is being an annoyance. In this case, I'm sorry that I was distracting. But even so, you had accepted me and all the happiness I have.
I was INCREDIBLY intimidated when I started highschool with you guys! But that was only the first week of school until I realized how extremely down to earth you all were. My friend's older siblings would say how extremely amazing you all were as a freshmen class all-around, and I got too afraid to even speak to you guys until you all decided to talk to me first. & I'm flattered you all referred to me by my first name rather than being labeled as a 'freshman'. & I was always protected from you by just about anything. I was even more flattered when you referred to me beyond my name when you've greeted me to others as a 'little sister to me' later on in the years.
Sooner or later, you'd start to know me better than myself. There were times I would settle for the easy path when you would make me realize how much I deserved better. & how much I worry about everything these days........you would make me return back to reality.
You witnessed me being a nun, a giftbox, a flapper every once in a while, an ol' time celebrity, a tap dancer, and being silly girl #2. :) You have all the facts to blackmail me whenever you want!!! But the feeling's mutual, so we just laugh about it afterwards instead. & I trust you guys way too much to ever do something like that. Then again, you know I don't get angry easily, so it wouldn't even be fun to pull a prank on me anyway.
I would say you understand me more than any of the other classes, and the reasons why are all the stuff I rambled above.
So, of course that one big question is to ask," So where does it go from here?" From your big step into your new life to my life without you.
[I'm dedicating this space for all the things you're thinking about right now to be placed in here.]
How long will it take for us to meet again? When will we start drifting from friend to acquaintance? What would we say to each other after 8 or so years? Questions like that seemed too overwhelming to answer last fall, but seem even more overwhelming now that this is the final day to say goodbye temporarily or permanantly. Because I don't want to think about forgetting people who became a big part of me.
Maybe when I'm going off to college, I'll realize how stupid I am for even thinking crazy thoughts like this.
It's just that..........you really shouldn't tell me that visiting me again would make me feel better. Because it won't be the same. & we'll eventally change.......probably look different.....and become older and older until we can't walk anymore. 'Visiting me' is just the start of all of that. & in some ways, I'm really excited you will. I want you to show the world how unbelieveably extraordinary you are, just the way I see in you guys everyday. I want to know that there's someone who would make changes in this world for the better, and I can't picture people more perfect for the job than the Class of 2010 when I'm finishing up on getting my diploma.
& as I become a senior, I hope I make you proud.
Eventually, my fingers are going to be chopped off from typing so fast........so if there's one thing I want to say that means the most out of everything I typed about...it's this: Just know that as you go on and continue your lives.....you changed a girl back in highschool who'll never be the same because of you. For the better, of course. ;)
Congrats, Class of 2010. Just so you know, I don't like saying goodbyes. So hello to being a freshmen once again! :P
With all love,
Ressa
