Blind Pursuit

Another song finished. This time, it took guts, tears, and some vulnerability to complete it. But I feel like it's worth it.

I.

Smile,
that's what they say
but I can't for you today
Laugh,
that's what they want from me
but I'm no good at pretending

I'm surrounded by possibilities
that weren't meant to be
and I'm distant
from where home is guaranteed
I'm told that its best to leave it be
but now I'm here with a broken dream



There was no beginning that triggered it
from what I can believe
just a continuing mistake
that I have yet to redeem
yet the struggle is more powerful
than the desire to be complete
people ask if it's possible
until now I have no clue
I am proof that breathes
everyday with a blind pursuit



II.
Speak,
you prefer that from me
yet I prefer to disagree
Listen,
since I'm making no sense
but you can't imagine my nonsense



I guess I'm living in some delusion
that I keep fantasizing
being hysterical
to distractions overwhelming
I'm told to forget about the unnecessary
but I can't tell the difference between the contraries



Being wrong is far from what I fear
because the hidden truth is more than staying here
yet there's no ending
to a situation like mine
because I'm always the girl
running out of time
figuring out all
that she wished she knew
I am proof that breathes
everyday with a blind pursuit